She stood peering at her reflection in the brass-framed looking glass. Her
long blond hair flowed softly past her shoulders, small strands of it lay
against her bare breast, her own hands unrestrained as they caress her body.
She placed her hands on the looking glass and wonders what it would be like
to be Alice and cross over to the other side... to a place of no boundaries.
Pressing on the glass, she closes her eyes and wishes out loud... just like
Alice... just like Alice. Feeling a sudden pull of force, her hands, palms
open in front of her frozen in mid-air, she opens her eyes to the whimsical
grin of a Cheshire moon beaming down, lighting the way to a door, slightly
ajar. As she narrows the distance, the door slowly opens. Curious yet
apprehensive to enter in, she steps one foot over the threshold and pauses,
and turns to look at the Cheshire moon, whose whimsical grin had turned to a
madcap glare.
Green... everything in shades of green; the color of passion, the color of
jealousy and envy. The door behind her slammed shut. She wiggled the knob
but the door wouldn't unlock, it wouldn't open. Her eye caught another door
across the brightly lit room -- she ran to try it, but it, too, wouldn't
release.
For a moment, both hands to her head, she twirled in endless circles -- then
made a sudden stop to look around. The room was filled with all sorts of
trinkets, gadgets and gizmos, hanging here and there, nothing that made any
sense at all. There must be a way to open the door; there must be a key to
look for.
There was a light green box in the middle of the floor, a tattered dark
green trunk off to the right and a sage colored negligee hanging on a lime
green hook on a sea green wall. That struck her as funny, but there was no
one to question, so she ran for the box and like Pandora gave no thought to
its contents before opening its lid. Out rushed the screams of unbridled
affairs, broken marriages and discarded lovers -- and the passion to be
loved that gave no heed to others. But no key... Covering her ears to drown
out the sounds she screams, "Stop!" Then silence...
In all the goings-on, she had forgotten her nakedness and slipped on the
gown hanging in plain view to hide her shame -- how odd, someone knew! She
went to the mysterious trunk, her curiosity at its peak. She looked on all
sides and there seemed to be no way in. She rolled it bottom side up and a
small but very discreet trap door fell open, just the size to fit her hand.
She reached inside, probed around and pulled out jealousy and envy in the
shape of an emerald heart on a golden chain, the only thing not green
clutched in her hand, but still no key. She placed the trinket around her
neck. "Oh my..." she sighed, "What does this all mean? I'm a passionate
woman; I have my needs, but I'm not a bad person," went her plea.
Then in a burst, the door flew open and the color of red -- the color of
desire and appetites -- flickered from the room. She could feel the heat
radiating as she moved closer. She hesitated but stepped inside, for there
was no other way to leave the green room behind. Then suddenly, like a
furnace the heat intensified and the flames grew higher around her. This
room, too, was filled with things of all red: a heart shaped pillow on a
heart shaped bed. Over in the corner stood a shadow of a man, unmoving and
speechless, with a thorny red rose in his hand. He appeared by his stance
to be someone she knew, but without hearing his voice she couldn't tell
through the flames, and when she tried to approach him, the flames only
grew.
Next to the bed was a clear crystal bowl with no color at all, filled with
apples and pears and cherries and grapes, all of red varieties. On a ledge
by the door in the midst of the heat was a little rainbow-colored pouch
unscathed by the flames. She stood like a statuette while the man in the
corner made his move. Not one word was spoken, but as he drew near, the
flames danced around him as he reached for her hand. He was a dark and
handsome stranger, not someone she knew. Gently he moved her and guided her
toward bed.
"Are you the mad-hatter in my Wonderland world?" As she looked in his eyes
she saw flickering ambers from the fiery flames. With a smirk of a smile
came the answer to her question in a low sadistic voice.
"I'm not the mad-hatter and it's not Wonderland. I'm your devilish desire in
your appetite land."
Her heart skipped a beat as he disrobed her and laid her on the bed with
flames dancing all around. He hand fed her fruit from the clear crystal
bowl, while stroking her hair and caressing her neck. She cried out in
protest as he seduced and violated her against her struggles, "This isn't
what I wanted at all!" she screamed. "I've been living with regret and
unfulfilled dreams. I was looking for love; it's not as it seems."
He continued to paw at her, with that devilish grimace and a frenzied laugh,
and before her eyes he shape-shifted to a disfigured creature with a reddish
glow. She managed to do what she hadn't been able to do before -- break
away from those uncontrolled desires and leap from the bed to the one ray of
hope... the little rainbow-colored pouch that may have a key. She opened
the pouch and sure enough, it was there, a red key -- she hurried to the
door, but there was no keyhole for the key to fit in.
All of a sudden the door flung open and the light streaming out was a
kaleidoscope of color, the colors of love and the echo of laughter faded as
she stepped through the door to the other room, while everything in it was
consumed by the flames. A waterfall cascaded from above into a pool of
sparkling water from an ocean of blue sky. Birds in flight sang their songs
of love, and the sounds of a whistling breeze could be heard through the
trees. There were three doors in this room, all with keyholes. One to her
left was labeled "new passions," the one to her right was labeled "new
desires" and the one in front of her was labeled "contentment." Surely the
key would fit one of these doors, but which one? But in this room she felt
no urgency to escape. Laying on the grass was a white silk robe, with a
silver and gold rope tie. She let it lie, feeling her nakedness was an omen
to bathe in the pure water, a baptism -- a cleansing -- dipping her toe in
first to test the water she found it warm to the touch and dove in.
A volcano of water rose up, then slowly descended, her gaze bewildered at
the magnificent water display, when suddenly before her eyes appeared the
man of regrets, the man of unfulfilled dreams, the very man that caused her
to run to all the wrong places and all the wrong things. She couldn't
believe her eyes -- there he was, the man she bed down with every night, and
was gone in the morning when she awoke.
As he came closer, her excitement mounted for the man she wanted. She could
feel the warmth of his breath as he embraced her, she not resisting. No
words were spoken, the only language was the language of love and
impassioned kisses. Unlike the passion of before, it was flowing from her
heart and soul. He caressed her tenderly and her body quivered. Desire
burned within her unlike any other desire, and she knew he wanted her, even
if for this brief moment in time. Their souls met. His hands moved slowly
over her trembling body, her nipples were hard having responded to his
tender nibbling, though his very touch made her knees a bowl of jelly. His
kisses were deep and passionate. Radiating from their bodies was heat more
intense then the fire in the red room. She was ravished with pleasure as
she felt his hard manly flesh enter her throbbing pussy. She held on to him
tightly and with every thrust she screamed with pleasure. She was one with
the man, inseparable and the concaves of her body fit his like a glove.
"More!" she cried, "Don't stop... never stop!" She closed her eyes to
concentrate on the sensation of every touch. The water was turbulent like
the waves of the sea, crashing and leaving its lucent droplets against their
bodies.
"Ahhhhh," she released. "Keep going!" she pleaded, and he did. Faster...
harder... more... until like fireworks on the Fourth of July, her body
exploded in frenzied spasms and escaped from her lips, the "I love you" from
her soul.
When she opened her eyes, he was gone. Her desire and passions were
fulfilled, and she had no regrets. She left the pool of water and slipped
on the white robe. She remembered the key and glanced at the doors; she had
to choose. She thought about each one and chose "contentment." The key fit
and when she opened the door, before her was the looking glass, so she
placed her hands once again to the glass and stepped through and ended her
journey in Wonderland.
Still wrapped in the white silk, emerald heart dangling from her neck and
the red key in her hand, she pondered the meaning of these tokens of
Wonderland. It wasn't long before she realized the emerald heart would
forever remind her that jealousy and envy breed discontent. As for the red
key, she'll never forget that desire unchecked destroys. But the white silk
robe with its silver and gold gave her the greatest memory of all -- that
pure love is like precious metal and something to hold on to... not run
from.